For years this was my philosophy of life. If you are alone, if you don’t let anybody in, your heart can’t be broken, you can’t cry. I don’t know when I started to be so STUPID to think that things might change.
It’s always the same. I am not worthy. I am not that good, good enough for someone’s friendship. Why should I? People leave, they always do, cause in the end they always find out I am not special, I am nothing. Why whould they stay? Why would they?
Maybe it’s time for me to go back to my old philosophy. Alone and better, cause I am used to be and nobody is gonna disappoint me. No lies, no tears, no bad thoughts, no broken hearts, no stupid, meaning less words.
I’m letting go. I am tired.